See Double You

The battle rages on between the yin and yang of the self…

The dark side longs for something more, with a restlessness and longing to do more in this life, because the current life-state and situation is insufficient.  Its awakened nature sees the overwhelming suffering all around, and its perception is that it should be able to do more to help, but it also believes it cannot where we are today.  There’s a painful desire to escape from the toxic pollution that is this overwhelming misery and negativity, away from what seems to be the uphill battle to remain positive and happy in life.

The light side chimes in, reminding it that where we’re at in this very moment is the absolute perfect time to do exactly what we want with our life.  Every individual and situation we encounter, lost in a blinded and self-inflicted nightmare of victimization and tribulations, simply needs to be awakened from their ignorance.  The ideal path is the one we’re on now, not the path we envision and perceive to having the greener grass.  The only challenge is how to inspire this awakening to simply paying attention.

Teachers remind us to be the change we want to see in others, to find the joy in each moment, to be here and now, non-attached to dreams and delusions that have no concrete existence in the present.  Simple in concept, but also simply the most difficult in practice, especially since western culture and human nature makes it so easy to lapse into the groove so many find themselves stuck within.  The challenge remains, and it is that to which I dedicate my self.

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Why are you so afraid?

What is there that is so terrible that makes you cower so?  Are you absolutely sure beyond a doubt that its not all in your head?  Never underestimate the intoxicating power of delusion.

You do realize that chances are its more afraid of you than you are of it.  That’s why it has you so easily convinced.

Is your attachment so great that the best you can do is to spend your life in fear and negativity, hoping that will help to hold on?  Is that why you complain more than compliment?  Why you reduce instead of reinforce?  Do you need that much attention that you believe acting that way will attract that which you seek?  Why must you hide inside the box instead of stepping outside and exploring the world around you?

Can you be completely honest with yourself and admit that living that way all the time makes you feel better?  Really?

Dylan Thomas said “rage, rage against the dying of the light”…

If you need me, I’ll be over here, embracing it face-to-face with both hands.  I’m not afraid and I’ve got too much to live for.  I can’t waste my entire life afraid of the unknown and seeking a reason to be miserable.  I’d prefer to focus on where I’m at right now in the moment and keep pressing forward in a positive light enjoying the adventure of it all.

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not careless, nor have I forgotten to remain mindful of my responsibilities, which means yes, I am going to be a bit more conservative when it comes to decisions that impact the bigger picture.  I do however recognize petty worry when I see it and none of it is worth even a consideration.  My apologies ahead of time then if I tune out when I see that coming…

Don’t be afraid, I’m right here and everything’s going to be alright… reach out… here I am… grab it with both hands and pull it close..its yours…

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